My Uncle did mission work in Bolivia and Peru. He was a quiet force to be reckoned with and could burn holes thru you with his eyes if you offended him. He wasn't much for obeying government if government was the problem. This, I know to be fact. When you are working with extreme poverty, you can rest assured, government can be blamed.
When I read what you write, I think of my uncle and wonder why don't you just " do it" if "it" needs to be done?
There is right, there is wrong and there are needs. Needs usually exist because something is being done wrong. If it is your calling to make it right, just do it.
I came to it rather late -- like about 5 years ago. I am, quite specifically, an oblatus of the Order of Saint Benedict, but Anglican, not Roman Catholic. An oblatus, basically, is one who has taken a vow to be a monk but who, for whatever reason (and there are many acceptable ones) is not cloistered, though he accepts the guidance of an abbot or Bishop. He tries to keep the Rule, however, in his daily life (not always easy!).
I came to it after a good life, although rather varied (as you may have gathered!). I was not always what might be called now a "nice" person. I have a wonderful family -- though I no longer live with my wife, but the arrangement we have is, for all that, still loving and amicable. Two wonderful children.
It just took me a long time to realise what I had been missing; it wasn't until a stay in the Cathedral Church of Christ, Blessed Mary the Virgin and St Cuthbert of Durham (England) that I realized what it was, and at the time there was a